My Doctoral Journey

Being Human…

This reflection is difficult, my week has been equally so. My family has fallen to the flu and my last four days have blurred together with fevers, medicine, crying babies, no sleep, and my attempts to study. I am proud of myself. I am proud of my paper, and I am sick. Watching the videos has been the hardest, I will have to return to them later to try to get a better understanding. I spent most of my week studying regression analysis, problem statements, purpose statements, and reading other related quantitatively studies in the University Library.

I am learning the different ways that language changes in the problem and purpose statements based on the specific study design. It is wonderfully challenging, I just wish my kids had not shared their cold. I am most excited for week 2’s feedback, the resources in week one helped immensely with this weeks assignment. I look forward to learning if I am on the right track and where I can improve in building a great mock study.

Overwhelmed is a bit of an understatement, but I will be ready for next week.

“I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart: I am, I am, I am.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar


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Buckle Up, this is statistics

8The first week has been a strong refresher course into the different research methodologies and purposes. It is important for me to be able to remember that each methodology offers researchers a unique way to address our questions and solve problems, but not every question is solved by every methodology. As I read through the texts and my own complied research I am reminded of the importance between qualitative and quantitative studies. At the beginning of the class, we were each welcomed in with a set of questions, I will answer in my reflection.

What are the differences between qualitative and quantitative research? The simplest way to answer the differences is that qualitative research seeks to identify the participants behaviors, views, and feelings on a particular subject to identify the initial understanding where quantitative research seeks a solution through data driven results. Both seek to advance our greater body of knowledge.

How can you best identify which method would be the most appropriate for a particular research question? The easiest way for me to identify which method is most appropriate is to identify the type of data available based on the current body of knowledge and identify how the data will be collected.  If the data will be collected using interviews than a qualitative study will be appropriate, if the data will be collected through case studies or experimental design that quantitative studies will best suit the research. Vogt (2007) reminded researchers that the methodology focuses more on how to accomplish the study you hope to complete.

I am very excited and a bit apprehensive to be moving forward with this class. Reading ahead, I am excited to be completing a mock study, I spent the entire week trying to identify an area of study that could continue to build my body of knowledge for my dissertation study and fit the criteria of the course. That was a challenge, but I found amazing resources and I am excited to be learning through practice and application. I am a bit apprehensive because this reads like it will be the most challenging course to date. I look forward to next week and establishing the framework for my study.



Vogt, W. P. (2007).  Quantitative research methods for professionals.  Boston, MA:  Pearson.

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Bitter Sweet, and Happy 4th

Wrapping up this course is a bitter sweet moment. I am so proud of my personal growth and development. I am astonished by the advancement in my academic writing style, specifically in my citations. My teams are improving both online and for the hotel, which is learning to adjust to my new virtual position. This course has offered a in depth scholarly approach which allowed me to confidently adapt the learning into my professional actions. My work teams have completed their spring/summer assessments and reported back a strong appreciation to the new design and consensus report.


I learned of so many new emerging theories and trends in leadership and team leadership, many of which I plan to investigate further as I go through the doctoral process. My two favorite at the moment are Noosphere and Self-Assembling Dynamic Networks. Dr. Van Cleave I will miss your teaching style, feedback, and engagement. Your class feels more rewarding because of the engagement you offer your students, thank you. I will miss your research, reading your papers is motivating… It worked to remind me of the voice I want to have, the depth of research I want to produce, and the boundaries I want to push. You will be fondly remembered as a great professor.


“How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.”

                                                                                                                                                                -The Diary of a Young Girl, Anne Frank
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Perseverance & Week 7

Perseverance should be a great leadership trait, the ability to keep walking forward through exhaustion, challenge, lesson, and blessing. This week I want to applaud each of us, this class has been one of deep thought, consideration, and applied theory. This week I am motivated, I have been motivated to incorporate the teachings of Wheelan (2016) into my own teams, and take some of it for myself. Last week, I messed up my final submission and lost a few points on my paper. I had to take a step back and regroup my thoughts. In a huge way, I had messed up. In the end I needed to slow down and ensure my final save went through before submitting. This week, I spent time ensuring I did not make the same mistake twice.

Leadership is something we earn and continuously improve. Silva (2014) identified outstanding leaders are willing to recognize and address their mistakes. I have admired that statement and I refer to it often. Some of our mistakes can cost entire companies, which I discussed earlier this week, and some can cost a few points, like the paper last week. The greatest asset for leaders is to learn not to dwell on the error, rather to welcome the lesson and solution.

I spent a lot of time this week thinking about my team strategy and how I can improve upon it and communicate those improvement ideas. I work well with reflections, so this week I asked all of my team members to provide a reflection based on the team, its efficiency, and areas of improvement. I am excited to receive the responses, it will help me decide where to focus our strategy for the coming quarter.


Silva, A. (2014). What can we learn from great business leaders? Journal of Leadership Studies8(3), 52-57. doi: 10.1002/jls.21337

Wheelan, S. (2016). Creating effective teams: A guide for members and leaders (5th ed.).   Thousand Oaks, CA:  Sage.


“And so we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

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Encouragement, found in discouragement

As a scholar and practitioner this week has presented me with a world of new terms and ideas to build my understanding of the world around me in a more comprehensive manner. I enjoyed this week’s assignment, although in no way am I undermining the complexity and depth of pulling together the research. Beside my computer sits a journal for notes in passing, valuable information I want to study on my off days. This week my journal page is full of new terms, theories, books, and conceptualizations I hope to build on, understand in greater depth, or incorporate into my own studies.

I am not going to lie but studying women in leadership does very little to encourage my academic journey nor impress greatness in me. I find it funny because female self-esteem is often cited for why we cannot lead efficiently, but where am I to find any when academically I am still reported as second to man – if not in science anymore, still in opinion. I was honestly surprised that this topic feels to me so personal- it feels unprofessional- and it feels wrong.

After reading all the gains women have made, I still feel sick to my stomach. How can I impress my equality and demand inclusion to professional careers when it appears I am being set back by societal stereotypes that have long hindered my gender? Personally, I use it as fuel to my work- to work harder, study longer, become indisputably great… however in the back of my mind I am reminded that when considering the findings of Heilman &Haynes (2005) whose research reported that working together with men in traditionally male domains can be “detrimental for women–even when the work outcome is highly favorable” (p. 914), but not always.

What I can say is this week I will be looking into evolving my current dissertation study- I have identified a new gap, one where I have extensive research already developed. I think I found the topic area that will bring together both studies and satisfy my curiosity for the duration of my program, at least.

The ability to find encouragement through discouragement should be a true mark of leadership. – Constance Quigley


Heilman, M. E., & Haynes, M. C. (2005). No credit where credit is due: Attributional rationalization of women’s success in male-female teams. Journal of Applied Psychology, 90(5), 905-916. 10.1037/0021-9010.90.5.905